5 days to graduation

it's 25*C outside and i can't even imagine how hot it must have been earlier today. i've been outside pretty much the whole day but still i'm not very tanned. i hate that i have so hard to get tanned. its not fair!
yesterday we went to my grandmother and her new boyfriend. he is a fisherman so we went out with the boat. and i finished my skirt! but i'll show pictures later.
oh, now i have to watch the sisterhood of travelinspants starring "ugly betty" and "serena"! and rory from gilmore girls..

7 days to graduation

only one week left! and today i had my last lesson in school, EVER! well, maybe. i might go to the university but if i don't, i had my last lesson today!
the sun is shining outside today and at 18.oo i'm going to the relax at maserhallen with some people from my class. it's a place with different saunas and bubblebaths and stuff like that. they even have a bar. after that i think i'm gonna spend some time in the solarium.
tomorrow i'm going to IKEA and to my grandmother. i'll be back on sunday and then i'm gonna practise some more driving and maybe i'll go to the solarium again, if i have time.
have a nice weekend!

8 days to graduation

i voted for the first time today! a moment worth atleast five seconds of your attention.
and it rained really much and also, i dyed my hair darker. yes, that's about it. i don't have anymore time. busy girl - that's me!

9 days to graduation

10 days to graduation

Went to school at 8 today. stood outside the classroom until 8.05 and then I left when no one came.. Sat down by a computor and later I heard that at 8.10 the lesson had begun. huh.
Had a second lesson at 12.20 so before that Henke and I went to McDonalds to eat brekfast and then I bought haircolor, Chocolate.
The next lesson was about the election that's happening at June 7th. But me and my mom are going to pre-vote on thursday. The lady that talked during our lesson was really boring and since I alredy know who I'm gonna vote for, I went home instead.
Changed my clothes and went out back to join my mother in her task to get tanned, haha.

Now I only have three lessons left in school! Swedish tomorrow, swedish and athletics on friday. Which means I'm free on thursday! Nice.

today

11 days to graduation

only had one lesson today, science. we wrote an evaluation and the teacher told us our grades. then i handed in a paper to my swedishteacher and then mia and i went to kims place where we wrote another evaluation that we sended in. so now i'm at home, doing nothing.
i'm probably gonna do some scetching and coloring today. and finish the book i'm reading. it's really interesting!

12 days to graduation

alex has second degree burninjury on his foot. this morning they put a can of beer in a fire to watch it boil. then it flew right on his foot and he had to go to the hospital. now he has a bandage and has to put on an ointment three times a day. i hope he gets better before graduation so he can wear shoes. he's rather swollen now.
i'm making (s)mashed potatoes now. wish me good luck, i've never done it before!

Come on,
VOTE FOR MY DESIGN!
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13 days to graduation

can you belive it ?! it's less than two weeks left!!!
time just flies by and i don't think i realize how little time there is left in school.
yesterday i bought breasttape to keep my graduationdress on place, hah.

well, today i'm gonna take a powerwalk, tidy up my room and play with my sister!

14 days to graduation

15 days to graduation

not many people know that i'm writing a book. a biography.
today i finished the first chapter, the back of the book, the front of the book, and the first page where i dedicate the book to three persons.
it feels great!

16 days to graduation

had a really bad day today and i don't feel like writing.

17 days to graduation

today is a typical swedish summerday; the rain is literally pouring down! i went home from school by bike and when i got home i had to hang my clothes - even my tshirt (!) - at the radiator to get them dry again. i really hope it won't rain on our graduation!
got my final grade in english b today, MVG! that's the best grade you can get here in sweden, so i'm really happy about that.
today i'm gonna study science the whole day so i will get every answer right on my test tomorrow.

18 days to graduation

we had a test today, in science. we had no idea. surprise, surprise! didn't do that well, but he said we could do it again on wednesday, so i have to study today and tomorrow.
held my lession about Maria Montessori today. it was interesting and fun. i had prepared some things, maraccas to devide in to pairs by listening to the different sounds and a colorseeingtest where you were looking at pictures of numbers in different colors and stuff, for the class to do.
and today we had our last lession in peace&conflictstudies.

now we have planned ourlast week in school - the graduationweek.
on monday we're gonna have an activity with the class, the whole day.
on tuesday we're gonna be in school from about 11-13 and after that we're going to mias place and start cleaning up and fixing the truck.
on wednesday we're gonna have an activity with the other class, bf3b. and then we're going to our teachers house to barbeque and play games.
on thursday we're going to mias place again to decorate the truck.
and on friday it's graduation!

21 days to graduation

our graduation-banderole. pretty, huh?!

today we were at mias house and ate salad and went horsebackriding. it was really fun, but a bit scary. now i'm gonna take a nap and then alex is coming!

22 days to graduation

today my hair is curly like carrie bradshaws!
when i got home from school today, i fell asleep. then i woke up and ate dinner, and fell asleep again! haha. so i've been sleeping pretty much the whole afternoon.
we finished our banderole today and hung it up, but i forgot to take a picture so i'll do that tomorrow and show it to you. it's really cool!
now i have this big crave to watch pretty woman and eat ben and jerry's! but i don't have the money to but icecream, poor me.

how often do you read blogs? and which blogs do you read?
i read friends blogs, a few of swedens biggest blogs, "fashion toast" and "the sartorialist" pretty much every day.

now i'm gonna finish my religion-work and send it to my teacher!

23 days to graduation

Is it possible to be happy without another person involved?
I wondered about this yesterday..
I don't think that i've ever felt really, truely happy all by myself. Sure, i could have felt it all alone in a room, but it's always somebody else who has given me that happiness.
I don't know if this is the case for everyone or if it's just me but it's an interesting thing to discuss. Sure you can feel happy doing things you love, but i'm talking about lifevelving quaking happiness. True, pure happiness.

IVAR WIKLUND

today you stole my heart

24 days to graduation

i'm bleeding in my mouth. my gums is bleeding. it taste blood. i'm gonna wash it away with tea.

today we had a much better day at school. started with a national test - english speaking. then we had to write an evaluation on our next lession. then we had some time to talk about our graduation and we started working on our banderole. i handled the drawing and did "linefellows" (hah) that was doing different things that represent each one of us. then we did a big pregnant one, who's gonna be our teacher. at first everything went fine, but as time passed by, the level of "talking, not discussing" went higher. but concidering it was our class, it went really well. but i'm afraid we probably scared the eightgraders that visited us today, hah.
then we desided that some of us is going to fix a big white sheet until tomorrow and lina and i went to get paint, black white red and blue, paintbrushes. tomorrow we're gonna print out the pictures that i made on over-head-paper. and after that we're gonna start painting on the sheet!

my mentor, teacher, åsa came to school today and she had her two children with her. her youngest son is a few weeks old now and he was so cute! i held him for about two hours and i walked around, played with him on a blanket on the floor, sat in the classroom, painted with him in my arms. i was so happy. i didn't want to give him away, hah. it's honestly a bit strange how happy i am when i'm holding a baby. i can't even describe how i feel when i can smell a babys smell, feel a babys little fingers squeeze my finger, see how a baby looks at me, see a baby smile at me or hold a baby in my arms. it's truely undescribable. i feel warm in my entire body and i feel so happy. nothing can bother my or come in my way and i know what i want most of all - to have a baby of my own.
and it honestly hurted me when someone else held him or when i had to go home. my heart started to beat really hard and i felt a pain in my heart. it sounds silly, i know, but it's the thruth. i never experience happiness like that in other moments or situations. i can never feel more blessed or happy than i feel when i'm holding a baby in my arms.

25 days to graduation

wow, this day has been.. crazy. a lot of fights and backstabbing and talking behind the back and arguments in my class today. i've tried to stay out of it but it's really hard.
been great in school today too - finished things. and i bought a new scetch pad today, alredy painted three pictures.
started workig on my religio-paper too. almost done. two questions left, but i'll do them tomorrow.
now i feel like shit, i haven't eaten since eleven. so i have to go now!

26 days to graduation

yesterday i did som scrapbooking. but i couldn't find my camera so i don't have any pictures. they will come later. and i found some pearls i didn't know i had, so now i'm gonna make some more bracelets. as soon as i find some threads.
i saw the butterfly effect last night. i thought it was gonna be a really bad movie, but it was honestly a very interesting and good movie. a little bit strange though. i have a few unanswered questions. but i guess they will never be answered.

today we are going down to the river to fish. my sister is convinced that she will get salmons. i'm going with her to watch. it's probably gonna be amusing, hah.
and i have to study today. tomorrow i have to hand in a detailplanning about a lesson i'm having for my class. and i don't really know how to write a detailplanning. i have to search on google for instructions or something.
how am i supposed to have time to do everything that i'm going to do today? i'm going to do my pilates soon and after that i'm going to start the detailplanning. when my mom gets home, we are going to practice some driving and then we are going down to the river. after that i have to take a bath and then i want to color a little bit. well, i have to be effective and not spend time here, in front of the computor. by 6 p.m i'm gonna watch one tree hill, and then gossip girl. at 9 p.m there's a movie on tv that i want to see. hah, i shouldn't plan my days after the tv, i know.
well, now i'm gonna do my pilates.
later!

haha

the 10 worse complains from dissatisfied travelers:

- "the beach was too sandy"
- "topless sunbathing should be forbidden. our whole vacation was tainted because we spent the whole days looking at other women."
- "we bought rayban-sunglasses for 5 euro from a streetsalesman, but the turned out to be fake."
- "no one had told us that there were fishes in the ocean. our children were chocked."
- "my boyfriend and i booked a room with two beds, but we got a room with a king size bed. we now hold you responsible for me getting pregant. this would never had happened if we had got the room we booked."
- "i compared the size of our oneroom-appartment with our friends threeroom-appartment and found that our was noticeable smaller."
- "the sand in the brochure was not like in the reality. in your brochure the sand was yellow, but in real life it was white."
- "we had to queue outside without aircondition!"
- "the local storeowners were lazy to keep closed during the afternoon. i often had to buy things during the siesta. this should be forbidden."
- "it took us nine hours to fly from jamaica back home to england but for the americans it only took four!"

28 days to graduation

sometimes i have trouble with myself. i get confused. i see myself in two ways;
i am pretty happy with my body. sure, i have a little too much on my stomach, but i'm not fat.. just a little bit shubby. atleast i have great legs!
i think that i am a strong person who has great grades in school, dispite my depression and i am happy that i. have made it through school without any help from my teachers.
over all, i think i am a good person.

other days i see myself as fat, ugly and awful. i tell myself to stop eating, and just allow myself to drink tea or coffe. i try to powerwalk everyday to get slim and i get extremly tired when i abuse my body like that.
i get angry with myself for not having the highest grade in every subject and i curse myself for not seeing my siblings more often.
i hate myself every time i eat and i hate myself for not loosing weight.

this thoughts can switch from day to day and it is exhausting!

i want to be able to relax. i want to have more time to spend on my hobbys. i want to see every part of the world and travel to every single country. i want to work with so many different things and i want to do so much.
i wish i had time to just lye on the floor, light candles and listen to music. i want to have the time to read books, without feeling stressed. i want to have more time to spend sewing, painting and scrapbooking. i want to have more time photographing and designing clothes.
i want to be able to do things that i love, without feeling stressed.. but i dont know if that's ever gonna happen. i hope so. there are so many things i want to do and i have so many dreams and plans.

i hope i'm going to look back at my life and be satisfied, when i'm old.

29 days to graduation

the walks around the river are lovely these days. its sunny but not so warm that you get too swetty. but today it started to rain when i was half way around.. fortenatly there was just a few raindrops and the rain began for real when i had alredy gotten home.

tomorrow we have a national test in english. listening and reading. im gonna go down to the local store to buy some apples or something, to bring with me to the test. that way i can concentrate better and my energy will stay up. or maybe i'll buy a fruitsallad in the cafeteria tomorrow? hm.. yes, that sounds better. but what if they dont have any that early in the morning? uh. now i dont know what im gonna do. no, if they dont have any, i'll ask doran to fix me one.
yes, then i have more time to tidy up my room. which i'll start doing now!

30 days left to graduation

i feel a little bit sour today. in my entire body.
im gonna take a long nice walk now and in a few hours im going to school. i start 13.50 and the clock is 11.00 now, so i have 2,5 hours until i have to go.
when i get back home im gonna study, study and study. i have to things that i have to finish this week. its really stressful. i dont know how im gonna make it. but i will, i have to.

i want the warm weather to come back! i want to lay out on the grass and get tanned. i have to get tanned to graduation, but i dontknow if thats possible in this weather. sure, its sunny outside, but its not warm and sunny enough to get tanned. please god, give us warmer weather!!

well, now i have to get going. im gonna make lunch when i get back from my walk too. any tips?

last of april was great. at 6.55 am we took the bus to tommys house to congratulate him on his 18th birthday. it was me, alex, gustav, storm and adam. we started drinking and by 9 o'clock we started walking to the bus. by then we were alot more.. i thik we were about 12-15 people. i met emma for a few minutes before the bus came. we went to uppsala and there we devided into two groups. half went to alexander (a restaurant) and sat by a table next to the river. the rest of us went to ekonomicum, then to slottsbacken and sat therefor a few hours. ate strawberrys and the group got bigger and bigger. after that we went to join the others by the river and after spending some time there, we took the bus back to tommys house. we barbecued, victor and fia joined us and then we walked over to tobbes house to drink in his bar. emma and oliver came there too, later on. and we watched the fire and drank a lot.
i had a lovely day